Creative inspiration often comes to me while I'm driving, or lying wide awake in the middle of the night, or mopping the kitchen floor. And yes, occasionally, even when I'm sitting with a client and forget for a few moments that I'm supposed to be paying attention. I love it when that happens: my brain envisions the beautiful piece of art I'm going to create just as soon as I can get my idea on paper, how I can hang my masterpiece on the wall and feel that little ping of satisfaction every time I pass by.
As soon as I can, I retreat to my creative space, my computer/art room, which I try to keep tidy but inevitably is overcome by piles of paper and scraps of metal and lists of things to buy to enhance my creative spirit, and piles of art books, and--oh, yes--the sauna (I am convinced the infra red heat rays stimulate the artistic part of my brain--or maybe just kill off the rest of my brain so the creative part seems bigger). Once a month or so I don my hip boots, grab a shovel, and clear a path from the door to my art table. I sort and save and throw, papers and paints and brushes swirling everywhere, until I have piles of things to save and throw away and hide and recycle (hoping that Gary isn't crippled by the weight of the recycling and garbage bins as he hauls my stuff to the curb. Well, we don't really have curbs here in Chester. I wonder if bears eat art supplies.) For a day or so I pause every time I pass my art room, huffing with satisfaction at my ability to organize. By the second day it once again looks like a hoarding nightmare. Who knew the creative spirit would be so messy?
Then there are my forays to the craft stores. I want to tell you I travel into the city regularly to peruse the high end art supply stores, but the truth is I go to Michaels and AC Moore at least once a week. I know it's difficult to imagine me stooping to such second rate fare, but I do wear a disguise when I go, just in case I run into any buyer kinds of people from the Metropolitan Museum of Art. Occasionally I go to a real art store and buy all kinds of wonderful paper in a variety of textures and hues, my mind a creative whirlwind of ideas.
Okay, okay. The creative process. Finally, I am sitting at my little art table, surrounded by paper and paint and brushes and scissors and metals and tools, and....not a creative thought to be found. I sit. And think. And try to remember just one of those wonderful ideas I had standing next to the paper rack at Peart Art Supply. Nothing. Nada. Not even a wisp of memory. So okay, this happens. All artists get blocked at times. I will soldier on. I root through my little pile of papers and choose an inspirational color. Brown. Okay, so brown isn't inspirational, but it looks good with inspirational colors, so I pick a few of those colors and spread them out in front of me. Still nothing. I pick up my scissors and cut out a shape. I like it, so I cut another one, and another. One falls on the paper and I like the way it looks, so I spend the next 4 hours arranging my three little shapes on the paper until my hand goes numb and I decide I like the last arrangement. Okay, what else can I add? Wait! I have some fabric so I throw a piece or two on the paper and then I remember a button popped off my coat yesterday and it's brown and it matches the brown paper. And then while I'm looking for the button I find an old piece of rusty metal that just has to get on the paper and while I'm at it maybe I'll throw in a splotch or two of paint because I'm in a splotching mood. And oh, yeah, now I remember this technique I read about last week and I think I might as well try it. It doesn't really go with what I'm working on but if I don't use it now I may never remember it again, so I throw it onto the paper, too. By now there isn't much brown background showing, but I didn't really like the brown anyway. And wow! All those colors. Who knew it would take so many colors to make a masterpiece. Okay, now I think I'm finished. I have to glue everything on the paper, so I carefully pick it up to move it to my glueing area, but....&^%*$#!! I dropped it and all the papers slid off. It takes me another hour to figure out how to get everything back on the paper. It doesn't look as good as it did before but by this time even I am getting tired of looking at my masterpiece so I decide to begin glueing. (What a funny word 'glueing' is. I wonder it that's how you really spell it. I used to be quite a good speller, but lately...oops. Back to the glueing process.)
(I didn't really want to make a new paragraph just when I was on a roll, but I know all readers are not blessed with my reading fortitude and long paragraphs might discourage some weaker souls. Besides, a new paragraph might create hope that I am almost finished. NOT!) Anyhow, glueing. I get my bottle of pH balanced glue (stop laughing!) and I'm ready to go. I have to glue from the top down (you will remember that I have been working on this for hours and there are a LOT of layers). Usually the little things are on top, so I pick up a microscopic button and oops--it fell on the floor. I put the glue bottle down, stand up and move my chair so I can find the button. Soon I am on my hands and knees, with my nose three inches from the floor, trying to find that damn button, which refuses to be found. So I find another button which doesn't really match but I am NOT spending any more time looking for that button. I return to my seat but I can't find the glue. After 5 minutes I find it on the computer table where I put it when I started looking for the button. Now I've got the glue, but I lost the second button. Fortunately, I now find the first button under a stray scrap of paper, so I dip it into the glue and it falls on the paper, but not where it's supposed to be. I try to remove it but it leaves a big splotch of glue so I have to leave it where it landed. I decide it looks okay there. I then pick up the second button and realize I forgot to put the cap on the glue and now the glue has hardened so I can't get any glue out until I spend 10 minutes removing hardened glue from the bottle.
Okay, so now I AM almost finished (the story, not the art project). I repeat this process multiple times. I finally work my way through the layers. Everything is glued sort of where I want it to be and all I have to do is put the layers on my brown paper, which I do. I congratulate myself, but then I notice that one of my shapes is glued on crooked. I try to slide it over but the glue is setting and I have to tug the sheet, until, of course (this being part of the creative process) the brown paper tears. Now everything but this last piece is glued on the brown paper, which is ripped. Being creative, I develop a creative solution. I throw the damn thing away.
Now (last paragraph, I promise!), I want you to know I made my Christmas cards this year. Yes, there are some glue splotches, some buckled paper, some crookedness, they will probably require extra postage (all those layers!) and I have said bad words while creating them, but they are mine! Or rather, yours, when you receive them. Please remember my creative process as you throw them away! Sigh.
Friday, November 12, 2010
Monday, June 21, 2010
I'm WAY too old for this
Wow. A trip to Montreal to sightsee with our two exchange students. What could be simpler? Drive up Saturday, wander the city for a day or two, then drive home. I would get to check out old haunts, meet with an old friend, the girls would see a new city and visit another country. Right. Except someone forgot to check to make sure that the girls took the appropriate paperwork. And they were only missing one little paper. No problem getting into Canada.
So we had a great time in the city and started back this morning. We pulled up at U.S. customs, where we found out that the little paper we left behind was a very important little paper indeed. We were directed to the outlaw area where they pull your car apart and treat you like a criminal. Now, I always feel guilty even when I'm not, so you can imagine the impact of parking in a lot full of men in uniform (which by this time looked pretty much like Nazi uniforms to me) who were barking staccato orders at us: park there! turn off your car! put the windows down! take off your sunglasses! unlock the doors! get out of the car! open the hatch! While we waited for our next order, I took a few steps away from the car...WHERE ARE YOU GOING? one of the gestapo yelled. (He really yelled. I was sure I was a criminal. I was pretty sure I must have done something terrible that I couldn't remember...early onset Alzheimers, maybe?) We scurried back to the car, and without a word, one of the uniforms pointed to the customs office. As I walked away from our car, I realized the hatch was still up. "Should I leave the hatch up?" I politely asked. 'WHAT ARE YOU ASKING ME FOR? IT'S YOUR CAR! DO WHAT YOU WANT!" the closest uniform replied, his nose about an inch from mine. I closed the hatch. The man inside the customs building silently took our passports, pressed a few computer keys and said. "You're all set. You can go."
Whew! That was easy. I was relieved that this whole thing was going to turn out well. No paddywagons today. We calmly returned to the car, got inside and I started the engine. A new face appeared at my window. "Turn off your car," this uniform said. I complied. "Roll down your window." I complied. "We're just doing a drug check," he said.
Oh, well. A drug check. No problemo. This will just take a second. WooHoo! Go for it, boys! (Good thing the government hasn't developed the capacity to read minds. I would have been in the slammer for sure.) Yet another uniform lead a huge German Shepherd around the perimeter of the car, the dog sniffing intently. As he rounded the front of the car, I put my hand on the ignition, ready to be on my way.
The dog paused by the front tire on the driver's side. He stopped, sniffed at the tire, then sat down, quivering with excitement while he stared at the tire intently. My hair started falling out in clumps. "Good boy," the uniform said. He bent over, peered into the wheel well, and said to uniform number one, "There's a bag of ecstasy underneath there."
By this time, I was practically bald. The ground was covered with fallen hair. (Well, not exactly covered in hair, as my hair has been thinning in recent years. But it's still soft, and quite--oops, back to the story). I put my head out the window. "WHAT???" I yelled. My voice sounded like I had just sucked in half a tank of helium. "WHAT? DRUGS!!! I DON'T DO DRUGS!! I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE THEY CAME FROM! OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD. DRUGS. DRUGS. DRUGS. OH MY GOD. DRUGS. OH MY GOD." (I am quite articulate under stress.) My thinking process is slightly faster than my speaking process in a pinch. I tried to imagine life in Dannemora, picking rocks, working in the laundry, being some big old woman's girl toy. I wondered if the exchange students would be in prison with me or if they'd be deported. I briefly toyed with the idea of turning to the girls and saying, "What did you do? These must be your drugs." My better half won that battle.)
Uniform number two thanked the sniffer team, took a latex glove out of his pocket and very slowly and carefully pulling it onto his hand, leaned over and reached behind the front tire. The hand came out holding a baggie full of white powder. The entire time I continued to sqeak, "OH MY GOD. DRUGS. DRUGS. OH MY GOD." I wonder if they'll put me in a high security prison, I thought. Is it possible to escape from one of those? I wonder if I could outrun the dog. Do these guys have guns?
The uniform straightened slowly, the baggie of white powder in his hands. He glared at me and said, "Just a training exercise for the dog, ma'am. You're free to go."
I opened the door a crack to scoop up my hair from the pavement (I hear they can do great things with wigs these days), started the car, and drove away at a speed lower than the posted limit, every nerve in my body singing. It was a long ride home. For the first 30 minutes I drove 30 miles an hour because I thought if I got pulled over for speeding I would die. Then I drove about 100 miles an hour because I couldn't control the affect of the adrenaline on my gas pedal foot. I alternated fast and slow for all 300 miles. I feel much older tonight, but at least I'm not in a 6 by 10 cell with a roommate named Bertha.
And I'm pretty sure up at the border crossing tonight, there's a group of customs agents gathered around a TV, eating popcorn and drinking beer, hooting at the video of the old lady with the babes getting pranked by the drug in your tire routine.
So we had a great time in the city and started back this morning. We pulled up at U.S. customs, where we found out that the little paper we left behind was a very important little paper indeed. We were directed to the outlaw area where they pull your car apart and treat you like a criminal. Now, I always feel guilty even when I'm not, so you can imagine the impact of parking in a lot full of men in uniform (which by this time looked pretty much like Nazi uniforms to me) who were barking staccato orders at us: park there! turn off your car! put the windows down! take off your sunglasses! unlock the doors! get out of the car! open the hatch! While we waited for our next order, I took a few steps away from the car...WHERE ARE YOU GOING? one of the gestapo yelled. (He really yelled. I was sure I was a criminal. I was pretty sure I must have done something terrible that I couldn't remember...early onset Alzheimers, maybe?) We scurried back to the car, and without a word, one of the uniforms pointed to the customs office. As I walked away from our car, I realized the hatch was still up. "Should I leave the hatch up?" I politely asked. 'WHAT ARE YOU ASKING ME FOR? IT'S YOUR CAR! DO WHAT YOU WANT!" the closest uniform replied, his nose about an inch from mine. I closed the hatch. The man inside the customs building silently took our passports, pressed a few computer keys and said. "You're all set. You can go."
Whew! That was easy. I was relieved that this whole thing was going to turn out well. No paddywagons today. We calmly returned to the car, got inside and I started the engine. A new face appeared at my window. "Turn off your car," this uniform said. I complied. "Roll down your window." I complied. "We're just doing a drug check," he said.
Oh, well. A drug check. No problemo. This will just take a second. WooHoo! Go for it, boys! (Good thing the government hasn't developed the capacity to read minds. I would have been in the slammer for sure.) Yet another uniform lead a huge German Shepherd around the perimeter of the car, the dog sniffing intently. As he rounded the front of the car, I put my hand on the ignition, ready to be on my way.
The dog paused by the front tire on the driver's side. He stopped, sniffed at the tire, then sat down, quivering with excitement while he stared at the tire intently. My hair started falling out in clumps. "Good boy," the uniform said. He bent over, peered into the wheel well, and said to uniform number one, "There's a bag of ecstasy underneath there."
By this time, I was practically bald. The ground was covered with fallen hair. (Well, not exactly covered in hair, as my hair has been thinning in recent years. But it's still soft, and quite--oops, back to the story). I put my head out the window. "WHAT???" I yelled. My voice sounded like I had just sucked in half a tank of helium. "WHAT? DRUGS!!! I DON'T DO DRUGS!! I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE THEY CAME FROM! OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD. DRUGS. DRUGS. DRUGS. OH MY GOD. DRUGS. OH MY GOD." (I am quite articulate under stress.) My thinking process is slightly faster than my speaking process in a pinch. I tried to imagine life in Dannemora, picking rocks, working in the laundry, being some big old woman's girl toy. I wondered if the exchange students would be in prison with me or if they'd be deported. I briefly toyed with the idea of turning to the girls and saying, "What did you do? These must be your drugs." My better half won that battle.)
Uniform number two thanked the sniffer team, took a latex glove out of his pocket and very slowly and carefully pulling it onto his hand, leaned over and reached behind the front tire. The hand came out holding a baggie full of white powder. The entire time I continued to sqeak, "OH MY GOD. DRUGS. DRUGS. OH MY GOD." I wonder if they'll put me in a high security prison, I thought. Is it possible to escape from one of those? I wonder if I could outrun the dog. Do these guys have guns?
The uniform straightened slowly, the baggie of white powder in his hands. He glared at me and said, "Just a training exercise for the dog, ma'am. You're free to go."
I opened the door a crack to scoop up my hair from the pavement (I hear they can do great things with wigs these days), started the car, and drove away at a speed lower than the posted limit, every nerve in my body singing. It was a long ride home. For the first 30 minutes I drove 30 miles an hour because I thought if I got pulled over for speeding I would die. Then I drove about 100 miles an hour because I couldn't control the affect of the adrenaline on my gas pedal foot. I alternated fast and slow for all 300 miles. I feel much older tonight, but at least I'm not in a 6 by 10 cell with a roommate named Bertha.
And I'm pretty sure up at the border crossing tonight, there's a group of customs agents gathered around a TV, eating popcorn and drinking beer, hooting at the video of the old lady with the babes getting pranked by the drug in your tire routine.
Monday, March 8, 2010
Art Lessons
"I just want to tap into my creative potential," I said to Caroline when I called to ask about joing her adult art class. "I want to experiment with color, motion, the energy of creation. I just want a place and time to flow, to pour myself out on paper."
"Well," she said. "Your children are certainly creative. I've enjoyed teaching them, I guess they get their talent from you."
"Oh, I don't know about that," I chuckled modestly. "My husband is more creative than I am. I've never thought of myself as an artist, but I'd like the chance to see what's inside waiting to be expressed."
I arrived at the first class, self-conscious, hoping that the room was big enough so that I could sit far enough from my fellow students so they couldn't see my work clearly. There were four other women in the class, three of them artists and one, like myself, there to try her hand for the first time. I carefully placed myself as as far as I could from the artists.
"Okay," said Caroline as she approached my chair. "Let's see some of that creativity in action." She placed paper, pencil, several tubes of water color paint, a palette and a fine-bristled brush on the table in front of me. "This is just to play with. Have fun!" She turned to the others and began to question them about what they would like to do with their time. I sat with a pleasant edge of expectation, waiting for creativity to arrive.
And sat. And sat. After half an hour, creativity nowhere in sight, I sighed with an air of melancholy, picked up the pencil and placed its lead tip on the center of the drawing paper whose massive white expanse taunted me quietly. The other students chatted and laughed around me, talking about their families, their previous art experiences, their lives, as women do when gathered together.
'Okay,' I thought. 'I'll draw a flower. Flowers are pretty. I can do that.' My pencil tip remained on the center of the paper. "How are you doing?" Caroline asked as she leaned over my paper. "Oh, dear. I guess you're having a little trouble getting started. What would you like to try?"
"A flower," I said, speaking with conviction, hoping I would be better at drawing flowers than I was at keeping them alive. How hard could it be to draw a flower?
"Alright!!" she said. She snatched the pencil from my hand and with a few broad strokes a flower appeared on the paper in front of me. "Good start! You take it from there." She handed me the pencil.
I sat. And sat.....and sat. The flower she had drawn looked so pretty I hated to ruin it. 'That was pretty easy to draw, though,' I thought. 'I should be able to do that.' I placed pencil to paper and began to move my hand, aiming for her bold confidence, achieving instead several shaky lines. I erased them, tried again. My hand didn't appear to be working very well. My flower looked more like a dead animal than a creative expression. I quickly glanced around the room to see how my fellow students were faring. One had nearly finished a small farmhouse in miniature, the other was working on an elaborate bouquet of flowers that looked like it belonged in the Louvre. A third was sketching in ink, her paper covered with small likeness of the people in our class. It even appeared the creative muse had visited the only other non-artist in the group as she spread pastel watercolored clouds across her white page. I hunched over my drawing, pulling my shoulders in to cover my flower animal.
Magically, Caroline appeared at my elbow. "How are you doing?" she asked again. "Oops, I'm having a little trouble seeing your work." She leaned forward to see around my shoulder, which was having a little spasm as I hunched it up further to block her view.
'I hope she gets a crick in her neck," I thought as I again glanced at the colors appearing on paper around the room. 'Serve her right for torturing me like this. This place is too hot...it's interfering with my creative flow.' I pulled at the collar of my turtleneck.
"Well," she said. "I can see you're still having a little trouble getting started. We have a few minutes before the end of the class. Let's forget about drawing and play with color." She whipped the tops off the paint tubes, splashed gobs of color onto a plastic Dixie plate, and plunked a glass full of water on the table. "You wet your brush," she said as she stirred the brush through the water. "The color will only run in the wet areas on the paper. Like this." She splashed and splotched with water and paint, and a multi-hued flower magically appeared. It was beautiful. I started having an asthma attack. I don't have asthma.
The idea that I might return home empty-handed spurred me to action, however, and I began to paint with grim determination. One small, grudging flower after another appeared on my paper. They were small and tight, but they were flowers! I left class with my soul singing. "I can paint. I can draw. I can do art!" Later that evening I proudly presented my creations to my husband. "Oh, wow," he said. "Those are great. I don't think I've ever seen mushrooms in so many different colors, or so skillfully drawn. Nice job!"
"Well," she said. "Your children are certainly creative. I've enjoyed teaching them, I guess they get their talent from you."
"Oh, I don't know about that," I chuckled modestly. "My husband is more creative than I am. I've never thought of myself as an artist, but I'd like the chance to see what's inside waiting to be expressed."
I arrived at the first class, self-conscious, hoping that the room was big enough so that I could sit far enough from my fellow students so they couldn't see my work clearly. There were four other women in the class, three of them artists and one, like myself, there to try her hand for the first time. I carefully placed myself as as far as I could from the artists.
"Okay," said Caroline as she approached my chair. "Let's see some of that creativity in action." She placed paper, pencil, several tubes of water color paint, a palette and a fine-bristled brush on the table in front of me. "This is just to play with. Have fun!" She turned to the others and began to question them about what they would like to do with their time. I sat with a pleasant edge of expectation, waiting for creativity to arrive.
And sat. And sat. After half an hour, creativity nowhere in sight, I sighed with an air of melancholy, picked up the pencil and placed its lead tip on the center of the drawing paper whose massive white expanse taunted me quietly. The other students chatted and laughed around me, talking about their families, their previous art experiences, their lives, as women do when gathered together.
'Okay,' I thought. 'I'll draw a flower. Flowers are pretty. I can do that.' My pencil tip remained on the center of the paper. "How are you doing?" Caroline asked as she leaned over my paper. "Oh, dear. I guess you're having a little trouble getting started. What would you like to try?"
"A flower," I said, speaking with conviction, hoping I would be better at drawing flowers than I was at keeping them alive. How hard could it be to draw a flower?
"Alright!!" she said. She snatched the pencil from my hand and with a few broad strokes a flower appeared on the paper in front of me. "Good start! You take it from there." She handed me the pencil.
I sat. And sat.....and sat. The flower she had drawn looked so pretty I hated to ruin it. 'That was pretty easy to draw, though,' I thought. 'I should be able to do that.' I placed pencil to paper and began to move my hand, aiming for her bold confidence, achieving instead several shaky lines. I erased them, tried again. My hand didn't appear to be working very well. My flower looked more like a dead animal than a creative expression. I quickly glanced around the room to see how my fellow students were faring. One had nearly finished a small farmhouse in miniature, the other was working on an elaborate bouquet of flowers that looked like it belonged in the Louvre. A third was sketching in ink, her paper covered with small likeness of the people in our class. It even appeared the creative muse had visited the only other non-artist in the group as she spread pastel watercolored clouds across her white page. I hunched over my drawing, pulling my shoulders in to cover my flower animal.
Magically, Caroline appeared at my elbow. "How are you doing?" she asked again. "Oops, I'm having a little trouble seeing your work." She leaned forward to see around my shoulder, which was having a little spasm as I hunched it up further to block her view.
'I hope she gets a crick in her neck," I thought as I again glanced at the colors appearing on paper around the room. 'Serve her right for torturing me like this. This place is too hot...it's interfering with my creative flow.' I pulled at the collar of my turtleneck.
"Well," she said. "I can see you're still having a little trouble getting started. We have a few minutes before the end of the class. Let's forget about drawing and play with color." She whipped the tops off the paint tubes, splashed gobs of color onto a plastic Dixie plate, and plunked a glass full of water on the table. "You wet your brush," she said as she stirred the brush through the water. "The color will only run in the wet areas on the paper. Like this." She splashed and splotched with water and paint, and a multi-hued flower magically appeared. It was beautiful. I started having an asthma attack. I don't have asthma.
The idea that I might return home empty-handed spurred me to action, however, and I began to paint with grim determination. One small, grudging flower after another appeared on my paper. They were small and tight, but they were flowers! I left class with my soul singing. "I can paint. I can draw. I can do art!" Later that evening I proudly presented my creations to my husband. "Oh, wow," he said. "Those are great. I don't think I've ever seen mushrooms in so many different colors, or so skillfully drawn. Nice job!"
Saturday, February 20, 2010
SOME THOUGHTS ON WISTERIA
For years I’ve read fiction based in the South in which wisteria vines featured prominently in the background. Wisteria vines bring to mind cups of tea on the veranda enjoyed by frail little old ladies sipping with pinky fingers raised. Or dark, malevolent screened porches, with a dead body, pouring rain and flashes of lightning. Or hot as Hades summer days in Mississippi or trips to the Cotton Exchange in Savannah. Wisteria vines always add an air of gentility to the scene in a plot with sunshine, or pile on suspense in a mystery novel.
So you can imagine my delight when I discovered wisteria vines growing along our deck railings at the home we moved into not long ago. Providentially, our vines sported long purple blooms the week we arrived. I imagined drinking iced tea with my book group friends on hot summer evenings, surrounded by wisteria vines gently nodding in the breeze. I just knew that my vines would add to the mystique of my new home.
Since then I’ve learned a lot about wisteria. Did you know, for instance, that wisteria grows about a foot every hour? The first time I sat on our deck to read in the sunshine, it was only a few minutes before I noticed shadows creeping over the pages of my book. Looking up, I realized that the vine near my head seemed much closer than it had moments before. Surely I have Alzheimer’s, I thought, having just finished reading Still Alice. But no, moments later a small tendril wrapped itself around my wrist. I flicked it away and continued reading until two more vines wrapped themselves around my body. Ok, I thought. I’d better do a little trimming here before I finish my book.
I pulled my Christmas Tree Shop canvas yard barrel onto the deck to catch the clippings, slipped on my Carol Rock leather gardening gloves and grasping the clippers firmly, began to snip vines. I quickly learned that when I grabbed a vine and pulled it toward me to clip, it extended 10 feet more than I expected. Curly little buggers, I thought. (And of course they’d be curly; you’d have to be curly to be genteel or menacing…) Well, so it will take me a little longer than I thought. No problem—having wisteria is worth a little extra work.
An hour and two yard bags full of clippings later, either I had not made a dent in the wisteria or it was growing back faster than I could cut it. As this dark little thought flapped through my brain, I heard a vigorous crunching in the woods just off our yard, followed by what sounded like horses snorting and more crunching. Even the dogs looked alarmed. I went in the house. locked all the doors and waited until the crunching stopped. Much later I read that when bears (!) feel threatened, they snort like horses. Maybe bears are afraid of wisteria vines too.
Oh yeah, wisteria vines. Well, anyways, I went back to clipping when the bears left. I clipped for another hour or two, until I could tell the vines were trimmed. A week later, the vines looked lovely as they wound around what had been my deck chairs and table. Not discouraged, I headed out again with my Carol Rock gloves and clippers, and threw myself into the vines, in a hacking and slashing frenzy. By this time the vines had overtaken the eaves on the house and were forcing themselves under the siding. They had grown down the legs of the deck and were growing back up through the floorboards. I found vines 5 inches in diameter toward the center of the growth. Or at least I think they were big vines—it was hard to tell because it was pretty darn dark in there. I couldn’t even see our house from inside the wisteria.
It was while I was sawing at the interior vines that I began to feel thousands of deer tics hopping off the vines into my hair. I started swatting and scratching and imagining myself covered with bull’s eye rashes, lying in the hospital with IV antibiotics streaming into my veins. I decided it probably wasn’t so important to get the big vines in the middle.
I returned to clipping around the edges, until I began wondering if there were any creatures that could live in wisteria bushes. Heck, for all I knew, there could be weasels, badgers, porcupines, or skunks in there. The damn bush was big enough to support a whole colony of critters. Nah, I thought. Nah. I decided I had done enough clipping for the day, and returned my tools to the garage.
A few days later I was watching TV in the family room when I thought I saw something moving on the deck. It was a groundhog, scurrying across the deck flooring to disappear under the wisteria. Maybe I didn’t just see that, I thought, and returned to the TV. But no, wait, there it was again. In fact, the little guy (or girl—I’m not good at sexing groundhogs yet) toddled right up to the lowest pane of the French door, placed his paws delicately on the glass and leaned forward to peer into the house. Then he calmly disappeared into the vines again. (And he was limping, by the way, so I’ve been worried about him. On the other hand, maybe he was rabid and is out there waiting for me.)
I haven’t bothered much with the wisteria vines lately. And I can’t see my deck anymore, but the vines are thriving. One final wisteria thought: could the damn deer eat wisteria? They eat everything else: flowers, shrubs, my holly bushes, trees—heck, I’m surprised they don’t let themselves in while we’re away and eat our houseplants. But they do not eat wisteria.
The next time you’re watching a National Geographic TV show on the glories of nature, don’t be fooled. It’s dangerous out here!
For years I’ve read fiction based in the South in which wisteria vines featured prominently in the background. Wisteria vines bring to mind cups of tea on the veranda enjoyed by frail little old ladies sipping with pinky fingers raised. Or dark, malevolent screened porches, with a dead body, pouring rain and flashes of lightning. Or hot as Hades summer days in Mississippi or trips to the Cotton Exchange in Savannah. Wisteria vines always add an air of gentility to the scene in a plot with sunshine, or pile on suspense in a mystery novel.
So you can imagine my delight when I discovered wisteria vines growing along our deck railings at the home we moved into not long ago. Providentially, our vines sported long purple blooms the week we arrived. I imagined drinking iced tea with my book group friends on hot summer evenings, surrounded by wisteria vines gently nodding in the breeze. I just knew that my vines would add to the mystique of my new home.
Since then I’ve learned a lot about wisteria. Did you know, for instance, that wisteria grows about a foot every hour? The first time I sat on our deck to read in the sunshine, it was only a few minutes before I noticed shadows creeping over the pages of my book. Looking up, I realized that the vine near my head seemed much closer than it had moments before. Surely I have Alzheimer’s, I thought, having just finished reading Still Alice. But no, moments later a small tendril wrapped itself around my wrist. I flicked it away and continued reading until two more vines wrapped themselves around my body. Ok, I thought. I’d better do a little trimming here before I finish my book.
I pulled my Christmas Tree Shop canvas yard barrel onto the deck to catch the clippings, slipped on my Carol Rock leather gardening gloves and grasping the clippers firmly, began to snip vines. I quickly learned that when I grabbed a vine and pulled it toward me to clip, it extended 10 feet more than I expected. Curly little buggers, I thought. (And of course they’d be curly; you’d have to be curly to be genteel or menacing…) Well, so it will take me a little longer than I thought. No problem—having wisteria is worth a little extra work.
An hour and two yard bags full of clippings later, either I had not made a dent in the wisteria or it was growing back faster than I could cut it. As this dark little thought flapped through my brain, I heard a vigorous crunching in the woods just off our yard, followed by what sounded like horses snorting and more crunching. Even the dogs looked alarmed. I went in the house. locked all the doors and waited until the crunching stopped. Much later I read that when bears (!) feel threatened, they snort like horses. Maybe bears are afraid of wisteria vines too.
Oh yeah, wisteria vines. Well, anyways, I went back to clipping when the bears left. I clipped for another hour or two, until I could tell the vines were trimmed. A week later, the vines looked lovely as they wound around what had been my deck chairs and table. Not discouraged, I headed out again with my Carol Rock gloves and clippers, and threw myself into the vines, in a hacking and slashing frenzy. By this time the vines had overtaken the eaves on the house and were forcing themselves under the siding. They had grown down the legs of the deck and were growing back up through the floorboards. I found vines 5 inches in diameter toward the center of the growth. Or at least I think they were big vines—it was hard to tell because it was pretty darn dark in there. I couldn’t even see our house from inside the wisteria.
It was while I was sawing at the interior vines that I began to feel thousands of deer tics hopping off the vines into my hair. I started swatting and scratching and imagining myself covered with bull’s eye rashes, lying in the hospital with IV antibiotics streaming into my veins. I decided it probably wasn’t so important to get the big vines in the middle.
I returned to clipping around the edges, until I began wondering if there were any creatures that could live in wisteria bushes. Heck, for all I knew, there could be weasels, badgers, porcupines, or skunks in there. The damn bush was big enough to support a whole colony of critters. Nah, I thought. Nah. I decided I had done enough clipping for the day, and returned my tools to the garage.
A few days later I was watching TV in the family room when I thought I saw something moving on the deck. It was a groundhog, scurrying across the deck flooring to disappear under the wisteria. Maybe I didn’t just see that, I thought, and returned to the TV. But no, wait, there it was again. In fact, the little guy (or girl—I’m not good at sexing groundhogs yet) toddled right up to the lowest pane of the French door, placed his paws delicately on the glass and leaned forward to peer into the house. Then he calmly disappeared into the vines again. (And he was limping, by the way, so I’ve been worried about him. On the other hand, maybe he was rabid and is out there waiting for me.)
I haven’t bothered much with the wisteria vines lately. And I can’t see my deck anymore, but the vines are thriving. One final wisteria thought: could the damn deer eat wisteria? They eat everything else: flowers, shrubs, my holly bushes, trees—heck, I’m surprised they don’t let themselves in while we’re away and eat our houseplants. But they do not eat wisteria.
The next time you’re watching a National Geographic TV show on the glories of nature, don’t be fooled. It’s dangerous out here!
Okay. We are now officially residents of Chester, NY. Today the dogs went bonkers barking from the windows. They used to do this when they saw deer, but there are so many deer, they basically don't pay any attention to them at this point. So Gary decided to see what they were barking at, and he said there was a bear in our front yard. I laughed at this, assuming that he saw a tree trunk or the neighbor's dog (who is as big as a bear). However, a few minutes later, he said, "Look in the brush. There is the bear." I scuttled right over to the window, and lo and behold, there were TWO huge bears (by the time this info hits my Christmas letter, those bears will be bigger than King Kong, but for now they were probably about 200 to 300 pounds--plenty big enough to eat me for lunch and the dogs for dessert) meandering through our yard. They wandered around for a bit, then headed up Fields Lane, then came back and wandered around in our yard again (they have probably identified our yard as THE place to be in 2008) and headed back up the road. Gary and I had returned from a walk about an hour earlier. Huh. No more walks in the wilderness for this writer.
Due to my highly scientific nature, I immediately headed to the computer to research bear encounters. I googled "What should I do if I encounter a black bear?" and spent the next 30 minutes developing a family safety plan. Tomorrow I am hitting the outdoor and sports stores, with a side trip to CVS to buy first aid equipment just in case my plan of protection fails. (Of course, you could point out here that if my plan fails there probably won't be enough of me left to apply first aid to, but let's not go there just yet...) Anyway, if I encounter a bear (and assuming that the loss of bodily secretions from every orifice I own doesn't cause me to faint from sudden dehydration), I learned that I should remain calm (HUH! Like that's going to happen) and if the bear hasn't seen me, I should back slowly (HUH again) away from the bear, staying downwind. If I am upwind or the bear has already seen me, however, I am instructed to make myself as big as possible (right, the only time being big has ever been beneficial and they tell me AFTER I've lost 60 pounds), putting my arms out and once again backing slowly away and talking calmly to the bear (ostensibly so the bear will recognize that I am human and therefore not a snack). If the bear persists in viewing me as snack material and begins advancing in my direction, I am directed not to run (HUH). Instead I am to remain calm but begin flailing my arms (this part will not be difficult) and making as much noise as I possibly can. Normally, of course (though this may surprise you), I am quite capable of making lots of noise. With my luck, and with my dehydrated body, should I encounter a bear, I will probably not be able to make a sound (and even if I remember not to run, I'll probably slip in my bodily secretions as I back slowly (HUH) away from the bear. I am instructed to climb a tree if possible. (By "if possible" I think they meant if there were suitable trees available. I don't think they envisioned me trying to hoist my tuckus up the apple tree in the front yard. I will thank you not to envision that either.) Oh yes, and I am not supposed to make eye contact with the bear. (Eye contact--are they nuts?!! If I ever meet a bear, I will forget I even HAVE eyes!!!!)
By this time tomorrow I will have the Page family safety kits in working order. I will leave the house with air horn in hand, whistle in my mouth, running shoes on my feet, and my Finnish pukko (fighting knife) strapped to my side. I might even get me a gun, although with a gun I would probably present more of a danger to self and other humans than to the bears. I might also bring a pot and wooden spoon for some extra noise-making capacity, and I think I will also slick myself up with something that smells particularly non-foodlike. Your suggestions as to what smells might repel bears are most welcome.
Of course, I haven't yet figured out how fast I can run from the front door to the car, but I'm willing to bet I'll be pretty damn fast. And tomorrow morning Gary has to put the garbage in the trunk and drive it to the end of Fields Lane. I bet he'll put it in the car faster than he ever has before. I wonder what time bears go to bed/wake up. I hope they don't eat him.
So think of me slipping from house to car like a little (non-foodlike) shadow, and keep your fingers crossed that bears don't like to eat middle-aged women. If nothing else, all the stress will probably knock off a couple more pounds. Maybe I'll make a documentary about living with the bears in Chester, NY. I bet you all wish you could live here, too. Maybe some day your luck will turn!
Kathy
Due to my highly scientific nature, I immediately headed to the computer to research bear encounters. I googled "What should I do if I encounter a black bear?" and spent the next 30 minutes developing a family safety plan. Tomorrow I am hitting the outdoor and sports stores, with a side trip to CVS to buy first aid equipment just in case my plan of protection fails. (Of course, you could point out here that if my plan fails there probably won't be enough of me left to apply first aid to, but let's not go there just yet...) Anyway, if I encounter a bear (and assuming that the loss of bodily secretions from every orifice I own doesn't cause me to faint from sudden dehydration), I learned that I should remain calm (HUH! Like that's going to happen) and if the bear hasn't seen me, I should back slowly (HUH again) away from the bear, staying downwind. If I am upwind or the bear has already seen me, however, I am instructed to make myself as big as possible (right, the only time being big has ever been beneficial and they tell me AFTER I've lost 60 pounds), putting my arms out and once again backing slowly away and talking calmly to the bear (ostensibly so the bear will recognize that I am human and therefore not a snack). If the bear persists in viewing me as snack material and begins advancing in my direction, I am directed not to run (HUH). Instead I am to remain calm but begin flailing my arms (this part will not be difficult) and making as much noise as I possibly can. Normally, of course (though this may surprise you), I am quite capable of making lots of noise. With my luck, and with my dehydrated body, should I encounter a bear, I will probably not be able to make a sound (and even if I remember not to run, I'll probably slip in my bodily secretions as I back slowly (HUH) away from the bear. I am instructed to climb a tree if possible. (By "if possible" I think they meant if there were suitable trees available. I don't think they envisioned me trying to hoist my tuckus up the apple tree in the front yard. I will thank you not to envision that either.) Oh yes, and I am not supposed to make eye contact with the bear. (Eye contact--are they nuts?!! If I ever meet a bear, I will forget I even HAVE eyes!!!!)
By this time tomorrow I will have the Page family safety kits in working order. I will leave the house with air horn in hand, whistle in my mouth, running shoes on my feet, and my Finnish pukko (fighting knife) strapped to my side. I might even get me a gun, although with a gun I would probably present more of a danger to self and other humans than to the bears. I might also bring a pot and wooden spoon for some extra noise-making capacity, and I think I will also slick myself up with something that smells particularly non-foodlike. Your suggestions as to what smells might repel bears are most welcome.
Of course, I haven't yet figured out how fast I can run from the front door to the car, but I'm willing to bet I'll be pretty damn fast. And tomorrow morning Gary has to put the garbage in the trunk and drive it to the end of Fields Lane. I bet he'll put it in the car faster than he ever has before. I wonder what time bears go to bed/wake up. I hope they don't eat him.
So think of me slipping from house to car like a little (non-foodlike) shadow, and keep your fingers crossed that bears don't like to eat middle-aged women. If nothing else, all the stress will probably knock off a couple more pounds. Maybe I'll make a documentary about living with the bears in Chester, NY. I bet you all wish you could live here, too. Maybe some day your luck will turn!
Kathy
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Wanderings of an Idle Mind
Four followers! Wow. I thought by now I'd have at least 3,251 followers--just think what they're all missing. I am pondering my next topics...Yoga, Dog Training, Metals Class. Any suggestions?
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Corporate Wife
Last week I attended the annual meeting of Gary's company in NYC. I am so not a corporate wife--in fact, this is only the second meeting I've attended in the 20 years he's been with the company. But he received his 20 year service award, AND it was in NYC--hotel, travel, and most meals paid for, with a bus tour of Manhattan to boot--who could refuse?
Now many of you may have noted that NYC had a major snowstorm last week, which of course arrived on the day we were to drive to NY. This is nothing new; every year there is a snowstorm during the annual meeting, and the meeting has been held in Chicago for the past few years, so Gary is always trying to catch a flight in or out of NY before the airports shut down. This year was no different, and we drove 12 miles an hour from home to the hotel in Brooklyn. I am convinced we could have driven to Chicago faster than we got to NY. Ironically, Chicago was free of snow this year. (God has such a twisted sense of humor.)
You might ask why the company continues to schedule annual meetings in the dead of winter when half the employees can't get there until the meeting is almost over. Here is the answer: because it has to be before (or after, I forget which) the big annual meeting in Omaha, which is also in the dead of winter. Coming from the social work world, I am continually amazed by the imagination of engineers. This time of year, I receive flyers for mental health conferences in Key West or Phoenix, or on a cruise in the Caribbean. These conferences have intriguing titles, like 'Madness and Creativity.' Gary receives flyers for conferences in Cleveland (in the coldest month of the year, mind you) entitled 'Sludge.' Yet these same engineers build soaring bridges in the trickiest places under the most trying conditions. Go figure. (On the other hand, maybe 'sludge' in Cleveland is really a bootcamp for weeding out the weak...sort of a Darwinian challenge for engineers.)
Oops. Back to the annual meeting and corporate wifery. I actually had to participate in only 2 dinners and the bus tour. I am sure that I do Gary's career no good when I go to these things. I alternate between bored silly and Barney, depending on the event. I smiled so much on the bus tour that I had a headache for two days. (Smiling I can do. Wifely chitchat and playing 'who's husband is more important' is harder. ) After touring Manhattan for 3 hours, I had my hand clapped over my mouth (to prevent any sort of corporate Tourette's which would have resulted in Gary losing his job). I hope no one noticed that I pushed everyone out of the way to be the first one off the bus. This would be my bored silly mode. The Barney mode is a little more subtle--well, okay, maybe not subtle. Not dignified, either. Or friendly. More like manic. In this mode, I am likely to approach other employee couples with a huge smile (as I age, the Van Kennen lips get ever more prominent, which can sometimes make a smile a tad more leering than I intend), thrust out my hand, and say something very subtle (subtle being my specialty, you've noticed) like "Hi. I'm Kathy Page. Who (the hell) are you?" I just think the hell part, though. I think. Sometimes it's hard to remember when I've been in the wifely mode for extended periods of time. Sometimes I am smoother than this, though, when I don't have the energy to shape my lips into a smile--I just lean over to peer at people's chests (the nametag, the nametag!) so that I can get the name without actually having to talk. I usually remember to clap my hand over my own nametag when I do this, so that people can't report me to hotel security.
The dinners are a little more difficult. I spent half an hour finding a dress to wear, and then 3 weeks finding undergarments that could squish the maximum amount of fat into the smallest space without forcing it (the fat) up into my head or down into my ankles (which would cause me to balloon into gargantuan proportions on either end), or causing my intestines to implode. This is actually a tricky balance, but one I am quite practiced at. I actually looked pretty damn good, although being an engineer, Gary failed to notice. (I bet he could have calculated my body fat percentage within a small margin, if I had asked, though.) Looking spiffy, we proceeded to the dinner, where I was once again forced into chit chat with people who talk math for fun. I smiled and nodded a lot, and then smiled some more. (Here, in all honesty, I must admit that I occasionally forget myself in such gatherings, and begin to ask social work questions, like: "Have you always had this drinking problem?" Or "My goodness, your mother failed you in many ways, didn't she?" Until I notice Gary giving me the eye. Then I start smiling and nodding again. Sometimes a kindly engineer notices my glazed look as they discuss an engineering concept and will try to explain. After about half an hour or explaining math to a social worker, they generally give up, though.)
On the last day of the conference, Gary voted to ditch the dinner and we went out for pizza. I am proud of him. Maybe in another 25 years he'll be a social worker! (Because if he keeps letting me go to these conferences, he'll probably be forced find a new job...or institutionalize me. Don't tell him about the institutionalize part, though. I prefer he not know that's an option.)
Now many of you may have noted that NYC had a major snowstorm last week, which of course arrived on the day we were to drive to NY. This is nothing new; every year there is a snowstorm during the annual meeting, and the meeting has been held in Chicago for the past few years, so Gary is always trying to catch a flight in or out of NY before the airports shut down. This year was no different, and we drove 12 miles an hour from home to the hotel in Brooklyn. I am convinced we could have driven to Chicago faster than we got to NY. Ironically, Chicago was free of snow this year. (God has such a twisted sense of humor.)
You might ask why the company continues to schedule annual meetings in the dead of winter when half the employees can't get there until the meeting is almost over. Here is the answer: because it has to be before (or after, I forget which) the big annual meeting in Omaha, which is also in the dead of winter. Coming from the social work world, I am continually amazed by the imagination of engineers. This time of year, I receive flyers for mental health conferences in Key West or Phoenix, or on a cruise in the Caribbean. These conferences have intriguing titles, like 'Madness and Creativity.' Gary receives flyers for conferences in Cleveland (in the coldest month of the year, mind you) entitled 'Sludge.' Yet these same engineers build soaring bridges in the trickiest places under the most trying conditions. Go figure. (On the other hand, maybe 'sludge' in Cleveland is really a bootcamp for weeding out the weak...sort of a Darwinian challenge for engineers.)
Oops. Back to the annual meeting and corporate wifery. I actually had to participate in only 2 dinners and the bus tour. I am sure that I do Gary's career no good when I go to these things. I alternate between bored silly and Barney, depending on the event. I smiled so much on the bus tour that I had a headache for two days. (Smiling I can do. Wifely chitchat and playing 'who's husband is more important' is harder. ) After touring Manhattan for 3 hours, I had my hand clapped over my mouth (to prevent any sort of corporate Tourette's which would have resulted in Gary losing his job). I hope no one noticed that I pushed everyone out of the way to be the first one off the bus. This would be my bored silly mode. The Barney mode is a little more subtle--well, okay, maybe not subtle. Not dignified, either. Or friendly. More like manic. In this mode, I am likely to approach other employee couples with a huge smile (as I age, the Van Kennen lips get ever more prominent, which can sometimes make a smile a tad more leering than I intend), thrust out my hand, and say something very subtle (subtle being my specialty, you've noticed) like "Hi. I'm Kathy Page. Who (the hell) are you?" I just think the hell part, though. I think. Sometimes it's hard to remember when I've been in the wifely mode for extended periods of time. Sometimes I am smoother than this, though, when I don't have the energy to shape my lips into a smile--I just lean over to peer at people's chests (the nametag, the nametag!) so that I can get the name without actually having to talk. I usually remember to clap my hand over my own nametag when I do this, so that people can't report me to hotel security.
The dinners are a little more difficult. I spent half an hour finding a dress to wear, and then 3 weeks finding undergarments that could squish the maximum amount of fat into the smallest space without forcing it (the fat) up into my head or down into my ankles (which would cause me to balloon into gargantuan proportions on either end), or causing my intestines to implode. This is actually a tricky balance, but one I am quite practiced at. I actually looked pretty damn good, although being an engineer, Gary failed to notice. (I bet he could have calculated my body fat percentage within a small margin, if I had asked, though.) Looking spiffy, we proceeded to the dinner, where I was once again forced into chit chat with people who talk math for fun. I smiled and nodded a lot, and then smiled some more. (Here, in all honesty, I must admit that I occasionally forget myself in such gatherings, and begin to ask social work questions, like: "Have you always had this drinking problem?" Or "My goodness, your mother failed you in many ways, didn't she?" Until I notice Gary giving me the eye. Then I start smiling and nodding again. Sometimes a kindly engineer notices my glazed look as they discuss an engineering concept and will try to explain. After about half an hour or explaining math to a social worker, they generally give up, though.)
On the last day of the conference, Gary voted to ditch the dinner and we went out for pizza. I am proud of him. Maybe in another 25 years he'll be a social worker! (Because if he keeps letting me go to these conferences, he'll probably be forced find a new job...or institutionalize me. Don't tell him about the institutionalize part, though. I prefer he not know that's an option.)
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Who woulda thunk?
Who woulda thunk I could figure out how to start a blog? From there it's a greal leap to assume anyone will be interested in reading what I have to say, but it's a world full of narcissism, and hey, why not?
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